I began trying to cover up my thighs from a super young age.
I remember being in Brownie's. I was perhaps 7. I was at a Brownie's meeting & my leader was crouched on the floor in a low squat. The memory is vivid for me of noticing her legs & how she didn't have much fat at all on her thighs, particularly in the area right by the knee. I looked down at my own legs in a similar position. I felt ashamed at the amount of flesh & fat present at that very same spot &, what I deemed to be, the large size of my own thighs. I remember feeling sad thinking that it's too bad I can't sit in that low squat position as it makes my thighs look too big...
At some point in later high school, I stopped wearing shorts & very rarely wore jeans or pants. Why? Because my thighs were too big. I could hide them better under skirts & dresses.
Walking around in public in a swimsuit was all but mortifying as I could feel my thunderous thighs making themselves present in broad daylight. I wanted to pretend that I was confident in my body. So, to escape this situation of walking around in my bathing suit, I would unconsciously completely check out of my body so that I did not have to feel the shame & disappointment I felt from the size of my thighs.
Goodness. Why oh why must I hide my thighs?
My legs are strong. The build of my body is quite curvy with wide hips & large thighs. I now feel quite proud of my thighs. They help me climb up mountains & ski. My strong thighs upon which I walk, stand, & support myself through each & every day.
The constant desire of feeling like I need to hide my thighs is no longer there. Sure there are certain clothes that I feel more comfortable in than others. But my mind no longer torments me with insecurities of why oh why are my thighs so big.
Yes, my body has shifted through the years. But, that doesn't change the fact that 'comparatively' my thighs are a bit bigger than many others. And yet, with that fact, I no longer desire a lifetime of hiding my thighs. I want them to be seen. I want to celebrate them!
The important shift that has happened here is an internal one. Finding, owning, & claiming my validation from the inside, from my Self!
Little by little through the years releasing the need for external validation that I am enough, that I am ok, that I am 'small'/skinny enough. Screw that! I want to be BIG! I want to OWN & CLAIM my space & power & do so while being supported from my tremendously strong, beautiful thighs.
I feel the call strongly to support women experiencing similar situations with their body. Maybe you yourself can relate to feeling like you need to hide your thighs, or perhaps this insecurity or shame around your body shows up differently. Perhaps you have struggled with disordered eating (I've been there), feeling too fat, feeling too thin. Whatever it is, if you find yourself holding back in your body. If you find yourself apologizing for your body. If you feel insecure or ashamed in your body, please reach out to me. This story, this pattern, doesn't have to continue on. You can feel amazing in your body! And I would be honored to hold your hand step-by-step in getting there. I have 3 openings for private coaching clients. My coaching style is unique in that is very somatic (body) based. I want you to connect with your body first before looking at limiting beliefs, goals, etc. I believe as feminine woman, your power & your confidence resides in your body. Beginning to learn to connect to the vast wisdom & insight that your body offers you, is not only the fast track to success, but it is also sustainable & leads to long term results & fulfillment.
If you resonate with the above & are ready to create some dramatic shifts, I invite you to schedule a complimentary call with me.
May 2019 be a year of releasing the stories & patterns that no longer serve you, your body, or the world. We need more big, bold women owning their truth & their worth! <3